Back...

I thought the previous post was gonna be my last post here,
as you can see, its proven, humans can't really predict what happens in the future,
yet they try to shape their desire future...

I guess i'm just back to writing.. rather than confronting with people around me..
I really never thought things would turn up this way,
but what i can do about it,
except letting it go...
there are things i wouldn't mind you bad mouthing about,
but yet you still tend to say that specific sentence..
and now the whole world is putting the blame on me,
but i guess its just gotta be that way..
thats how god does his work magnificently without us knowing his next move..
anyway.. what's done is done..
it just concluded with me being emotionless at the end of the story..
whoever got hurt of felt it..
i just can't do anything anymore..
i'll just sit at the corner and keep my mouth shut..
and i guess i did make mistakes and i know i can't turn back anymore..
whatever i say... i always wanted to defy it and go against it..
but i'm afraid that you will feel that i am not a person that takes ups what he said..
i guess the only thing i could really do now is to watch at the blank screen daily and secretly take a glimpse of you...
or its just time to let go of everything i truly want and end up destroying???