Recent days

A week has pass, still i felt emotionless,
i didn't know why,
but everytime when i was at school,
things just look so dull and i'm always feeling tired when i got nothing to do,
it is just because of the emptiness in my heart,
or maybe its because i'm different from before,
and most of all, i'm still staring at the dark cold screen of my phone,
just hoping, maybe there will be a light signifying a message,
Just one message from that someone...
Days past just like that,
trapped and caged myself in my room most of the time doing my homeworks and revising some topics,
yet why i am still thinking...
Was it my fault to send those words,
or maybe it is just what you want me too,
I always wanted to just send you a message,
yet the promise i made to you of not bothering you anymore,
tend to pull string every single time,
i'm just to afraid that i'll be someone which you think as a man that don't keep his promise,
I'm just too afraid.. 
and now..
That all i have,
The feeling of being afraid to lose something precious...